Today's Journey (I) - 123005

shitsureishimasu~~~ here i go~~

hummm.. that was a long time when i posted my last entry~~ X3

well.. to be honest the last one was not an easy one.. >///<

From that time till now, so many things happened.. from all of the feelings that usually we have till the feeling of DEADLINE!!!.. (the last one was surely still occurs now..)

I guess that i can start from the good one,,

It started that my private lesson's student is going to his country, Japan. It's his 2nd of this year that he asked permission to have a break from work here.. When he said that, in my thought was "so no more income for 2 weeks?".. but.... on the last week when he was going to Japan, I've got a call from one of math and science school at Darmawangsa. The director asked me if i still have interest to teach there... and exactly at that time i said "yes". The students that I've already taught there between 4-9 years old and usually they are using English to communicate. At the first time i got a little bit frustrated that i have to teach math in English because the vocab of maths in English a little bit different. I have to teach maths with the words that common in international school.. O.O.. even if i can speak English from study, I have to find the words that common in math. So at the end I tried to find in internet so many site that explain math in english~~~ Thanks to the internet~~~ And till now I'm trying my best to study the way they learn and trying my best to show that I have the guts to learn and study with my students~~ ^^

Next, if we talk about my university's life.. emmm.... just like usual.. up and down in friendship that caused by misunderstanding.. but it's all cleared now~~ no need to bring it up~~

And the point of this journey is......

I WENT TO MU GUNG HWA again for the 5th times at 2 different location....

hummm... exactly i just want to release some stress during this week... It talked about "SHP" or we can say that it's my 1st exam for my "S.Pd" title.. XD

so welll yeah here I go with me best friend (Re).. and to be exact that she asked me first if i can join with her to go to MGH today.. so I accept it..

The way to go to MGH we passed it a little hard.. first, both of us have to go to campus to have some consultations with our lecturers, and later we went to there.. but.. on the way to go there the weather was not really friendly, it started with drizzles and it end with rain~~

When we're near the way to MGH, the rain haven't stop yet, so find some building to stop by..

But next, both of us already inside the building because the security asked us to sit inside while waiting the rain stop~~ awww... ~~thank's to also to the security~~

Because it takes a long time to wait the rain stop and the "drizzle" in our stomach, so we finished our waiting just went through the rain.. (np: through the rain - mariah carey)

eventhough the rain still pouring in, we moved stright to MGH.. (oops.. sorry.. MGH that i mean is on senopati not at jl. Panglima polim..)

In the middle of our way to MGH, suddenly i feel not comfortable with my high-heels.. I saw to them, and... one of the string of my heels is broke.. =.=

*sigh* it just before we arrived at MGH, and i still have a long road to go back home.. 

But when I make sure of the string, I guess that i just need to walk slowly, so the broken won't be worst..

after walking slowly to go there... finally~~~ MGH here I come~~~

order some foods like oden, tteokbokki and ramyeon.. here's the picts.. minus oden, because we already ate it and it leaves nothing only the sauce~~ XD

We enjoyed the foods with watching Shinhwa Broadcast episode 10.. the room at MGH seems like our home because we laughed at the video here~~ XDD

After we finished our foods, we went back to home, and ready for another journey on another day~~

*ps: I guess tomorrow i won't be able to use my high-heels, so gotta preparing my sneakers for tomorrow~~*

if you don't know anything don't think you know it, and don't even try relaxing me.

it's so pathetic... you know, ur lies, just F***-ing enough with that!!! *sorry

just say :"dunno.." I KNOW!!! i'm not that STUPID, k?? so disappointed!! really... just can't get the right reason for that!!

even my own friends never backstabed me... how pathetic!!

For my best???? for your S*** own secure!! eyes meet eyes, tricked me, i trick you the worst..! just say..

you started it, i believe in you, but you backstabed me, sorry... NO TRUST!!!

can i say something bad here.. well guess ot!!! so maybe just say: "watch out!"

sorry, but uncomfortable with you from now... you tricked me, well i tricked you worst.. sorry..

kusoooo!!!! tw gini gak gw pinjemin tadi!!!! helloo!!!!! who the hell are you!!!

WHAT!!! knapa bas buka youtube malah ada K9 web protection alert?? what the~~!!

hummm~~~~ well... yo sist~~~ sorry~~~ but no trust again...

3rd ST (2+0+1+2=5)

weww... I dunno how to start it.. but i have so many distraction tonight!!!

It's so S**K!! why the people can't see from the both point of view?

what's the using of our eyes if we only see it from one side??

why can't we just try to lightened their heavy pain?

why we just have to tarit the others as traitor and the others as a heroes?

I just can't got enough thinking of what they are really trying to do?

to make them feel at aese or to make them hate each others?

It is our responsible as a "supporter" to support what the best for 5 of them?

after the separation not only 2 of them start to move on, but the three of the also start from the beginning..

The feeling of loosing the faith of their fans...

The feeling of being a looser..

The feeling of being vulnerable..

The feeling of loosing hope..

The feeling of being treat as a traitor..

The feeling of being the Guilty..

why?

why?

why can't we just trying to feel them..

feeling the faith..

feeling the pain..

and also sharing the pain..

The Hard work..

The accusation..

The resistance..

The rejections..

The Emptiness..

The Missing..

The Uncomplete..

The forbidden..

The Famous without happiness

The Joyfull without enjoy

The Happiness with nothing..

The feeling to have the faith on their fans...

The feeling of being acceptable..

The feeling of need to be understand

 The feeling of together..

The feeling of  being respect..

The feeling of eagerness..

The feeling of being able to stand on their own feet..

The feeling of being come back..

The feeling of peace..

why don't we just use our both of our eyes and also our heart to prove our faith?

-Feira-

 

2nd ST

hummm... okay it will be the 2nd ST.

well... maybe it's just kind of my "inner" convo, which is mean that i'm having some "Feedback" time from my every thought.

first of all, i'm going to rebute all kind of any action that i have already been start since this month..

new year, it have to be new spirit, new target, new vision, etc...

If i want to do recall agai, i'm doing nothing on my last task (Skripsi) since last two months..

Exactly i wasn't blame someone but, it just that myself need some rest for a while..

I just don't want to make my body feel down again like wahat have already been happened. so i don't wanna push it too hard.

I'm just like using a cover to everykind of my act. It means that when i tried to calm down someone else about something  that we worried together, i was become the calm-made person to make the situation not really too tension. But whatever i said to them, it's just like my "self-talked". I  I tried to calm them down and at the same time, i tried to calm my self by the myself. So it happened to this condition, which is about my last assignment. I'm trying to calm myself by keeping the others not too rush theirselves where the end of this assignment will be going on 4 or 5 months later. I am a person that doesn't to be on the rush condition. If somebody trying to demand me in rush condition, i'd better keep myself out, and do it on my pace. All the point of this is i need something that keep on a track, with my pace, which is slowly but sure..^^

humm... maybe the longer one is the main point.. ^^

I don't know why i just write like that, but as long as i tried to put it aside, the more negative thoughts that come and makes myself broke... sounds so depressed right?

But,, as FYI, i had finished watch the JYJ-Come On Over, and turn to T...R and my TL was talking some memories about 5 of them...

Well.well..well.. guess tonight will be the "purple's night" again...

so calm..but so lonely..

so sincere.. but so unsecured..

so amazing.. but unperfect

so full... but not complete..

when 5 of you together all of those things will completely removed by Joy, Happiness, Sincerity, Honesty, and Faithfulness... So till this post written, I'm still standing here waiting for you guys to be "The One" again..^^a

ps: random talk?? well that's my style^^a

so much points on these days but only covered by those paragraph.. guess really2 a bin, right?

so.. of for this post...

Ja Ne~~ matta ashita!! >.<

first ST

Okay, i guess this is the first ST (Sharing Time). If i want to look at myself I'm not a "writer"-type. I am more to "speaker" or "Listener" type..^^

So I just wanna to shout out here.. even if English is not my primary language, but I wanna write it in English to improve my skill. Besides that, for me, it is easier to write or to shout out in English. Be more expressive in English.. LOL..^o^

The idea itself came to my mother to make a diary with the "other" language besides my primary one. At the first time, i tried to use the "symbolic" sign that I've created before. But since Senior high school, i got bored with it, and back to use English again.

If I'm on a good mood usually I'll say or write it on another language, such Japan and maybe Korean. It depends on the situation, If I wanna say something really bad.. usually i use both of those language.. but just a few words..

I think this is for my fist ST, and I'm sure that the next ST will be post tonight.. ^^

I wish this kind of media can be my "little-bin" of this "maybe" wonderful life..^^

I Wish

I Wish

By: Feira_amami

Cast:

1. Park Ri In : 22, Energetic, Pretty, Rich, Love cooking and Playing guitar, Yoochun’s little sister, sick when she was kid, sensitive, ..

2. Park Yoochun : Ri In’s big brother, one of DBSK’s member, protective to his little sis’, Like flirting, Womanizer by his words,

3. Kim Jaejoong : One of Yoochun's best friends, Too much in to his own mind, being a complicated man, keep the word of  "When I know you well, I care for you more".

4. Kim Junsu : being a best friend's of Yoochun, simple minded person, falling deep in love with music, a loyal person only to his friends.

5. Jung Yunho : yoochun's best friends, always try his best to make the persons that he love happy, unpredictable mind, love to dance, always being a flirt when there are women around him.

6. Shim Changmin : a person who love food more than his friendship, being a best friend with the other four, always being care to Ri in since they met at the bookstore accident

7. Han You mi : Ri In’s Best Friend since they're kids, being the rational one among three of them, the tough image girl but the mellow person inside.

8. Lee Maki : Ri in's best friend same with You mi, the simple minded person, an easy going one, and also the tomboyish image of her.